KFC got my hopes up.

I have to say this is kind of weird even to myself. Ok let me recap. I am desperate for money. For traveling, for Broadways, for clothing, whatever--I need money. I've been looking for part time jobs for quite a while. Yesterday I saw this deal: $70 for an orchestra seat to watch The Phantom of Opera! Wow! So basically I need to make $70 somehow by the end of August. My dad is certainly not paying for this. Luckily--and I am truly truly happy about this--I walked in to the KFC near my house today, and they actually put up a NOW HIRING sign. WOW! How fortunate am I! So immediately I filled out the forms. I really hope I get the job! The shift is 6PM-12. It might be a little bit tiring and even dangerous when I have to go home, but if I'm too picky I'd never get anything. And like what I said to Chris, I do think working at McDonald and even KFC is very demeaning in general and unusual for an Asian person like me. But, oh well, it's money. Time is hard, you can't ask for too much. Plus, more importantly, people from high school rarely go there (that's why my bottom line is NO MCDONALD, but not NO KFC), so I don't have to worry about getting exposed THAT much. :)

Where We Are on the Road of Learning?

*changed the title as requested by Curtis. Too much work would be involved if I change the name in the picture so I'll just leave it alone.



This is a visual diagram that I came up during the school. I think it quite accurately describes a couple types of people in my school.

First, normal people like me ask questions and then move on. But weird people do exist. Smart people like Gene are always ahead on the Road to Learning. Slow people like Jaims are always a couple miles behind. For example, when we talked about the Byzantine Empire, Jaims' mind would still be wandering somewhere among the ancient Romans. People like Robert and Wei stay on one specific topic forever--they just ask..and ask...and ask...It never stops. They will always come up with another question for the exact same thing. And the best is people like Jackie and Curtis. They ask questions that usually get the first response of "What the Hell?" "Where did you get that idea?" They are usually so far off the road of normal thinking that their questions becomes simply unanswerable.

I am worried...

...about prom.

I know very well that I score pretty high on the loser/fob scale when it comes to womanly things. And I'm not gonna lie, I am very worried about my prom date. Well, no matter how much of a loser I'm not going with Chris Wei or anyone that ppl kept talking about. That is my bottom line. Worse comes to worst I'd not go at all. I do have someone, maybe two, in mind but I just don't have the courage to ask. Well Girls are not supposed to be the one asking but considering my situation I don't think any satisfactory guys would ask me first. I'm like a weird guy magnet though. At the same time I'm very afraid that I'll lose my chance forever. Ugh. I hate things like this. And what's worse is it's so boring and ordinary.

Funny stuffs.

Ok so let me share w/ my imaginary reader a few funny/very funny stories I had/heard recently.

So let's start with today, which was pretty messy. Jackie, Gene, and I were at the shuttle stop around 4PM and it was raining pretty heavily at that time. The shuttle came and I was the first of the three (followed by Jackie, then Gene) on line to get onto the bus. For some reason water was pouring down like a waterfall from the top of the shuttle bus's door, it looked like some kind of entrance to a ridiculous water ride. Since it was pouring outside also, I, just like everyone else, wanted to get onto the bus as soon as possible. So as soon as I saw the woman in front of me stepped up the stairs I jumped right into the bus. Two things happened at this moment: 1) my head dipped right into the buttocks of the woman right in front of me--those were pretty big; 2) surprised by both the humongous buttocks AND the "waterfall," I paused at the door, and what happened was Jackie, who was right behind me, got trapped right under the "waterfall," and she was COMPLETELY soaked.

All right, next. So last week during lunch I overheard a woman talking to her friends about what she saw the night before.
"You know last night I was on a bus on first avenue, and all of a sudden, I saw this guy, or woman, or whatever it is, running fanatically on the street. Well, his face is so obviously male, but he was wearing a tank top. On top of that, at first I thought he was wearing some kind of tight pants, but when the bus got closer, I realized he had NO PANTS WHATSOEVER. You can see his two round, shiny butts! And you see other people on the street that he ran by looking back one after another realizing they just saw something kind of weird a couple seconds later."
I love NYC.


Ok now it's the bahar story. So, according to Bahar, her lab has two gorgeous looking guys, one named Brian, another--hmm I don't remember, let's call him Matt. Matt apparently has a girl friend for five years so he's out of the question. Brian, on the other hand, is single. Bahar seems to be falling in love with this guy Brian--"Oh listen, he has blonde hair, blue eyes, great muscles, great smiles, OMG HE'S EXACTLY THE GUY I WANT." So one day Brian was curious about Bahar's origin, and asks: " Hey Bahar, your name sounds exotic. What's your origin?"
"Hmm, guess!" Bahar says (flirts). After a series of guesses Brian finally said Persian.
"Oh! So you're Persian."
"Yeah."
"I dated a Persian before."
"Oh REALLY?" You can totally imagine Bahar's creeper eyes lighting up immediately . "What's her name?"
"No, HIS name."

Leila.

I think this will be the name I use in college. Yeah. :)

The first person I saw with this name is an anime character in Nana. She's cool. shown below:

I think my dad is going through menopause. Oh, wait, he's just being himself.

However great my dad, or step-dad, is or has the potential to be, he is exactly type of person I do not want for a friend. Just to make this clear, my despise of my dad isn't that type of childish teenage "oh dad my dad is so annoying" despise. I really can't stand his distorted personality and the frequent nonsense. There is absolutely no way to have a decent and logical conversation with him, especially when the topic is somewhat controversial.

For example, around seven o'clock today my baby brother suddenly started crying in the living room. My brother was upstairs in his room, and I was in the dining room. My dad was in the living room working on his computer, right beside my crying baby brother. For the first twenty seconds or so I thought my dad was trying to comfort my baby brother so I did not bother. Even though he was still crying, I did not go into the living room because it's very normal for a baby to keep crying for awhile even when someone is comforting him. And after about half minute I decided to check the living room because by then I was pretty sure my dad wasn't doing any comforting, and at the same moment that I got off my chair, my dad started yelling my and my brother's name, and said: "Hey! Come down! What's your problem? Your baby brother's crying!"

My brother and I got to the living room immediately and I was annoyed by the "What's your problem" and retorted: "I thought you were taking care of him, you're right next to him." And all of a sudden my dad's voice level was raised ten fold and yelled at me: "I'M WORKING! WHY DIDN'T YOU COME AND CHECK ON HIM?"

This ridiculous accusation actually got its way into the dinner. I don't exactly remember but probably some kind of trigger word such as "responsibility" led my dad to begin his rampage aimed at me and my brother: "Hmm! What's the use of you two? Not even coming downstairs when your brother's crying. So irresponsible. What's the use of you two?"

Nobody spoke. My mom, my brother, and I all remained silent. For one it was a ridiculous accusation; during daytime when my dad is out for work, my brother is like my baby brother's second dad. He not only helped my mom taking care of my baby brother, washed my baby brother's clothes, but also takes care of the chickens in our house. Although I do not do as much as my brother does, although I may deserve the criticism to an extent, it's certainly not to the point of "what the use of me?"

My dad's relentless soul obviously propelled him to bring up the same thing again after a long silence: "Seriously, tell me, What's the use of you two? WHAT THIS THE USE OF YOU TWO?"

It was at this point I could not hold myself back anymore, and began saying how I thought, by logic, that he was taking care of the baby in the beginning. I said I would have went to check immediately if he weren't in the house. I really see now flaw in my statement and yet my dad managed some nonsense, mostly the same thing--you're irresponsible--frankly speaking I didn't even understand what his counterpoint was, as usual. After that my mom got enough of it and told both of us to stop arguing, and he started saying something like I started this argument, which is completely not true and everyone knows that and only somebody as nonsensical as my dad would make such statement. And then I responded by pointing this obvious fact to him and he not only did not admit the mistake and apologize (which never happens, nunca jamas), he started saying "I was criticizing you, and when I criticize, you LISTEN!"

He then, again, started talking about how I always talk back and how I would have been beat to death if I grew up in the rural village where he grew up; he said it in a way as if I would have deserved to be beat to death. And I said, "even if I'm killed, it'd be your fault, not mine. I don't give a shit about getting killed, as long as I don't kill other people."

"You have a good life." Somehow the whole thing ended with his ridiculous remark which almost prompted me to continue on with this nonsense.

Good life? Nobody has a good life. Everybody has his or her own sorrows. Even people like Paris Hilton must have their own problems that trouble their souls. And I believe, the more successful one looks, the more pain he has. Just because the fact that you, in this case my dad, once lived in poverty and had to worked really hard physically and later academically and struggled through a lot of things (such as getting hot oil splashed onto his face and body by his crazy ex-wife) does not mean that you suddenly are morally superior than everyone else who does not have the same background. And over and over again my dad kept bringing up how poor he was and how good of a life I have right now and how I would have not survived that life he had. You know what? I would have survived. I would have survived better than he did. It's truly unfair to suggest me as morally inferior and accuse me of something as baseless as this when I have absolutely no chance of living the life he had. This is like the second type of unarguable argument I explained in the past blog entry. It' so ridiculous.

And speaking of morals, my dad finds moral issues in almost everything one does and says. If you ask him where something is, he is certainly going to say something along the lines of "Why are you so messy? How can you eve live independently later on? Hm! You're probably going to die being so lazy." Even if he knows where something is, he'd say "find it yourself! If you can't even find something as small as this, then how do you deserve to live?"

Once we were watching Chinese news on TV during dinner time, and the anchorman used a phrase that I did not know, so I asked my mom what that meant. And all of a sudden, my dad gave a demeaning laughter and started saying: "how can you not know this? Are you still Chinese? Are you stupid?" My mom told him that I only have a sixth grade Chinese vocabulary, and there's nothing wrong with asking for the meaning of something one does not know, the opposite is more scary. And my dad said: "Hmm, yeah, right, I bet if I ask any sixth grader in China they would know what this phrase means." and then proceeded onto the same stuff with even more scorn.

LISTEN. I may have only a sixth grade Chinese vocabulary but I was not a stupid sixth grader. If I don't even know what that phrase means then I'm pretty sure not many other sixth grader would know either. I don't know on what base, again, my dad made this ludicrous comment or it's just him not willing to concede, but I'm pretty sure with his rural education he probably didn't know what that phrase meant when he was a sixth grader either.

And as always, there's the college thing. He has been accusing me of only "knows study study study and nothing else, no life skill whatsoever" for a very long time. So obviously he does not want to become a nerd and wish me to be well-rounded, or something. However, after I told him my decision to become a photojournalist, he said: "HM! Forget it! You?!You can't even manage your daily life and you expect yourself to be walking around with heavy equipments all day? (he used to say the same thing about my being a doctor--"Forget it! You can't even cut or sew or do anything and you want to cut people in the future?") "You think being a photographer is easier than being a doctor? You're dead wrong! I think you probably should just be like your mom do research in a lab or something." he said.

And on another day he also said "You want to study history? Do you even know what the point of learning history is? DO YOU KNOW? It's to learn the mistakes of the past and not make the same mistakes again." implying that I should not study history, in this case, East Asian Studies, because of the mistake--not much profitable job opportunities in the future.

I don't know what his problem is. But for one as a father, his job is to be encouraging, even if sometimes when one's child is going astray on his path to life, a father should kindly correct, not harshly stomp and crash his child's confidence and everything inside. Secondly, I think he is in fact the one who thinks being something can be easy. NOTHING is easy. If America's Next Top Model had taught me anything then it would be that no career is easy. Just like how everyone has his or her own sorrows, every job has its own difficulties. There is no easy job. I don't make my decisions lightly, and he should not assume that I did. I know how limited my earnings would be once I'm out of college, and I'm very well aware of the fact that I could be living in poverty. Not that I'm not listening to his advice, I did. and I knew. but it doesn't mean I must follow it. Thirdly, of course one of the main reasons to study history is to learn the mistakes we make in the past and not to make the same ones again, but wait, did my dad just implied something like no one should ever study history?

Anyway, I think I'm currently on the verge of explosion. I don't think I can stand this for much longer. Thank goodness only one more year till I leave for college. I cannot stand nonsensical people who think they are always right.

A Response to Alejandro's Most Recent Post

After reading his recent entry "$$$," my first reaction was--F YOU. It is only during times like this I regret my decision to join science research. Why am I working seven hours a day, five days a week for two months as a freakin' volunteer when I could have been making thousands? I NEED MONEY TO TRAVEL! On the other hand, I can totally imagine Alejandro, this freakin' druggie, sitting in his office doing absolutely nothing productive and thinking about nothing but his beloved weeds. And he's getting paid!--to buy even more of his beloved weeds and the--"accessories." Someone apparently really wise wrote: "the ugly and the stupid gets the best of it in the world." Well, I shouldn't be so sarcastic about that actually; I'd be buying stuffs I love also with my money, so far only hypothetically speaking. As of now, I can handle my anger, or jealousy, because I know one day, when it really matters, I'll be earning much more than Alejandro--but wow, if the exact opposite happens...I don't know what I'll do. Strangle him, maybe. No, actually, rob him.

Afterthoughts: Harry Potter 6

AH. It's hard to imagine that one day, eventually, when mentioned the name Harry Potter, a teenager would say "what? Who's Harry Potter?" Not only the teens today, but also adults, elders--we all grew up, or old, with Harry Potter.

I went to watch the movie with high expectations, mainly originated from online reviews. Considering the reviews for past several movies of this series haven't been all that great, HP6's seem to be quite good. I, however, wasn't really satisfied. "The ending was brilliant!" Someone says in his review. I thought the ending was too flat. Although I don't remember exactly the ending in the book, I still remember that gloomy, yet epic-like feeling. The movie ending feels abrupt, and shallow. I don't think enough emotion/scene is given to Dumbledore's death, nor does Harry involve in enough fighting at the end. It just...ended.

But this movie made me want to actually finish that gigantic last book of Harry Potter sitting in my brother's room. Yeah, it needs a closure. One more to the summer reading list:

Dorian Grey
Dr. Jekyll
Metamorphosis
Cuckoo's Nest
Double Helix
Predictably Irrational
Colossus
HARRY POTTER 7

and numerous other technical books. FML.

Xinjiang Riot

I haven't really experienced any ethnic tension when I lived in China. Perhaps I was too little then to sense such tension, but what I thought and still think is that Han Chinese like myself are jealous of the lives of minorities like the Uighurs. They live in the most beautiful places in China. They get a boost in their college entrance exam, sort of like affirmative action. They can legitimately have more than one child. They get lots of financial support from the government--basically the perception is the fewer people you have in your clan, the less you have to work. It's more important for you to reproduce and to continue your culture since you are "scarce."(contrary to the accusation that the Han Chinese are trying to take away their culture) Being multicultural has always been what Chinese government try to advertise. Oh have fifty six ethnicities that live harmoniously under the rule of the Communist party; propaganda often show these fifty-six minorities all dress in their unique clothing. I don't think anyone in China would want to take away anyone else's unique culture. It's just ridiculous. Why would anyone do that? Sure the government forced these people to study mandarin, but what's wrong with a standardized language? It'll only help the Uighurs in finding job opportunities and all. Plus it isn't like anyone's forbidding them from speaking their own language.

I'm really sorry for the economic disparity but again I think this comment to an article in NY times really sums it up:
"The real resentment is economic disparity. But that's not just Xinjiang, but everywhere in the world now. Han Chinese are the new Jews, hard working and frugal, focusing on education, and end up having a better economic life. For that, many people resent them."

Well, back to the riot itself.

I'm appalled. What kind of human being can just go up to the street and just beat random pedestrians to death? What kind of human being would dare to ORGANIZE such thing? I don't object to violence, because sometimes it is necessary. But I believe if you have a problem with government policy or the society, you either try to change it the right way,e through government and politics, or you fight the soldiers, who are essentially paid to die fighting. Killing innocent and, more importantly, ARMLESS civilians is the ultimate act of cowardice; this is what terrorists do. I think the Uighurs who participated in the riot should be utterly ashamed because they just totally destroyed every Uighur's hard-built reputation.

discrimination, intolerance, injustice...I wish one day people could overlook one another's differences.

Rest in peace, the people who should have not died but did in this never-before-seen idiocy.

there's a reason that I don't like Ben.

(Ben's MSN status was "Uighur rioters=terrorist," so I changed my status to "Han Chinese='New Jew'," which is a quote from a comment on NY Times. And the following conversation begins with Ben's response to my status.)


[22:14] † [福] | 爱 †: why would you even say that about your own people
[22:15] BIRD.: hmm u don't get it?
[22:15] BIRD.: hold on let me find this NY times comment
[22:15] † [福] | 爱 †: i get it
[22:15] † [福] | 爱 †: but you're basically calling yourself derogatory term
[22:15] † [福] | 爱 †: if someone else does it let it be
[22:15] † [福] | 爱 †: but why would you
[22:15] BIRD.: wat?
[22:16] BIRD.: Han Chinese are the new Jews, hard working and frugal, focusing on education, and end up having a better economic life. For that, many people resent them.
[22:16] BIRD.: " "
[22:16] BIRD.: i don't see how it's derogatory.
[22:16] BIRD.: you don't get it.
[22:16] † [福] | 爱 †: calling another person a jew isn't really a compliment
[22:17] BIRD.: you have to read things within context
[22:17] BIRD.: since i gave u the context it's really pointless to keep saying it's derogatory
[22:18] † [福] | 爱 †: so you're saying that person wrote that to compliment chinese people
[22:18] BIRD.: wat? is ur world black and white or something?
[22:19] BIRD.: just becuz it's not derogatory doesn't mean a statement becomes a compliment
[22:19] BIRD.: do u seriously need me to explain to you the nature of that quote?
[22:19] BIRD.: the tone
[22:19] BIRD.: the style
[22:19] BIRD.: the purpose
[22:19] BIRD.: seriously. stop 鸡蛋里挑骨头.
[22:20] † [福] | 爱 †: here's the esl student arrogantly looking down upon others again
[22:20] BIRD.: when did i look down "upon" u?
[22:20] † [福] | 爱 †: right now
[22:20] BIRD.: i don't understand why ur giving me this attitude when i have no intention of attacking my nation and my people
[22:21] BIRD.: whatever you believe im sure i totally agree with you i don't understand why you keep challenging my status when it is in fact for Han Chinese
[22:21] † [福] | 爱 †: hmm you simply writing that blatant phrase han chinese = the new jew sure gets you a lot of attention doesnt it
[22:22] BIRD.: wat?
[22:22] BIRD.: look, you have problems
[22:22] BIRD.: and let me tell you what your problem is.
[22:22] BIRD.: you think that no one else besides you has the authority to discuss political issue becuz no one knows better than you
[22:23] BIRD.: and when I start to make a comment
[22:23] † [福] | 爱 †: wait i think your problem is the esl student learned a couple of new vocab words and phrases and decides to think she graduated from columbia school of journalism
[22:23] BIRD.: wat?
[22:23] † [福] | 爱 †: "you don't get it."
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: "is your world black and white?"
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: arrogant
[22:24] BIRD.: 小人之心度君子之腹.
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: yeayeayea
[22:24] BIRD.: i can't discuss anything serious with you
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: look
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: if you want some serious debate
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: make an acct here
[22:24] BIRD.: because it always turn into this stupid childish accusation session
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: asiafinest.com.forum
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: asiafinest.com/forum
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: intelligent unchildish people
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: unlike myself
[22:24] † [福] | 爱 †: are there
[22:25] † [福] | 爱 †: let me see how you argue your point with them
[22:25] BIRD.: wow.
[22:25] BIRD.: ur like
[22:25] BIRD.: one of those 愤青 in those chinese forums
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: yup i am
[22:26] BIRD.: i hope u grow out of it some day. cuz i did.
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: so go to that forum and lets see how other people judge you
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: should i even start a topic
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: Han Chinese = The New Jew
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: topic title
[22:26] † [福] | 爱 †: ?
[22:27] BIRD.: wat
[22:27] BIRD.: oh
[22:27] BIRD.: sure
[22:27] BIRD.: buh remember to put that quote
[22:27] BIRD.: thx
[22:27] † [福] | 爱 †: what quote?
[22:27] † [福] | 爱 †: the quote from nyt?
[22:27] BIRD.: yeah u can't just put a phrase out there becuz ppl like you will take it the "derogatory" way
[22:28] BIRD.: btw u used the term derogatory first not me the esl student
[22:28] BIRD.: and the fact that u kept calling me ESL student
[22:28] BIRD.: suggests arrogance
[22:28] † [福] | 爱 †: well im childish
[22:28] BIRD.: and looking down
[22:28] BIRD.: you are
[22:28] † [福] | 爱 †: im a 愤青
[22:28] BIRD.: you are
[22:28] † [福] | 爱 †: so i guess im allowed to call you an esl student
[22:29] BIRD.: you're never prohibited
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: and you cant retaliate because supposedly you grew out of that phase
[22:29] BIRD.: exactly im not retaliating
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: and btw
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: in ur status box
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: you didnt put the entire quote
[22:29] BIRD.: hmm sure.
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: just putting han chinese = the new jew is pretty blatant
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: so im just gonna put that
[22:29] † [福] | 爱 †: w.o the quote
[22:30] BIRD.: wat?
[22:30] † [福] | 爱 †: and lets see the people's responses
[22:30] BIRD.: this is the type of things the manipulators do
[22:30] BIRD.: like
[22:30] BIRD.: romano
[22:30] BIRD.: who take things out of context and then twist it the other way
[22:30] † [福] | 爱 †: hey you wrote it first
[22:30] BIRD.: im sure ur not that type of perosn
[22:30] BIRD.: sure i can put the whole quote in
[22:30] BIRD.: if ppl like you complain
[22:30] BIRD.: just hold on
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: LOL WHO WROTE HAN CHINESE = THE NEW JEW without the entire quote?
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: no dont
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: leave it
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: freedom of speech
[22:31] BIRD.: hmm exactly
[22:31] BIRD.: so i'll put it back
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: if u put the entire quote i wouldn't have said anything
[22:31] BIRD.: then why are you so angry?
[22:31] BIRD.: wow
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: but just putting that little phase in there is undoubtedly to cause trouble
[22:31] BIRD.: lol you just don't want to lose
[22:31] BIRD.: or admit that you didn't understant
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: you lost already lol
[22:31] † [福] | 爱 †: dont worry
[22:31] BIRD.: you're so pathetic im sorry
[22:31] BIRD.: no
[22:31] BIRD.: wait
[22:31] BIRD.: im not sorry
[22:32] BIRD.: you're just plain pathetic
[22:32] BIRD.: there's only one truth
[22:32] BIRD.: and even if other ppl take it your way
[22:32] BIRD.: the wrong way
[22:32] BIRD.: i know what i mean
[22:32] BIRD.: and i know im right
[22:32] † [福] | 爱 †: wow the girl who grew out of 愤青 is calling others pathetic
[22:32] BIRD.: so i don't care what ppl think just by looking at it
[22:32] † [福] | 爱 †: im sure intelligent people wouldn't use those words
[22:32] † [福] | 爱 †: whatever, you probably have an enlarged inferiority complex problem
[22:32] BIRD.: hmmm...your logic has becoming increasingly difficult to understand
[22:33] † [福] | 爱 †: hating yourself, its ok
[22:33] † [福] | 爱 †: g'night
[22:33] BIRD.: nitee
[22:33] Meebo Message: † [福] | 爱 † is offline


I knew this would happen. Ben is the easiest type person to read. I know he likes politics. In fact he is very involved in things like this, but I'm not. He's the type of person who, when involved in a conversation regarding politics with the "normal people," would think other people are talking about crap and don't know anything at all because he's the politic savvy. I knew he never took me seriously when it comes to thing like this. In fact he probably views me as an idiot who only knows bio chem and math and couldn't care less about the world around me. Just like how Chris gets offended when other people try to intrude "his land"--humanities, politics, and history, Ben obviously disdains most of the people other than himself when they try to talk about politics.

When he first sees my status I knew he probably thought something like "wow this nerd does NOT know what she's talking about." What I did not expect is how he starts calling me ESL student, which has absolutely nothing to do with the whole Uighur riot or anything I said. He reminds me of those 愤青, meaning angry youth, that I see in Chinese forums, who always have some kind of angry, often extremist, opinions about the world the society and are never at peace. They always argue and argue and argue. Neither party of the argument ever concedes and neither considers the logical part of each others' argument. They just pick on the "flaws" and use those to continue to argue, argue, and argue more. There's a reason that I don't like Ben.

I just knew how much he'd like Arod next year. So predictable and pathetic.

I've retrogressed...

...back to watching something like NYC Prep.

Based on the way the show is edited, I feel the producer is trying to mock the stupidity demonstrated by these 16 and 17 year old young people. And I've retrogressed. I find myself actually enjoying the stupidity demonstrated. Is my inner self really craving for this type of luxurious, superficial life in which meeting social trashes like most of the girls and guys on that show is my daily agenda? Hmm...I don't know. I know I once longed for one of those boarding school environment though. I just like the smallness of the school, hence the closeness of the friend circles, and especially those cafeteria scenes often depicted in TVs and movies. I don't object to the exclusiveness of an ideal boarding--not private--school. But anyways...back to NYC Prep....Actually....I have no more to say...it's just so stupid...but I'll continue to watch it.

Two Unarguable Arguments.

LOL. This came up during a discussion I had with Chris.

I believe there are two types of arguments that you just can't find words to argue against. One is an argument that's such a universal truth that there is just absolutely no way that anyone can find anything to argue against (ex. murder is bad). Sometimes this come across as stupid as the one I'm going to talk about next. I feel I had encountered this type of situation quite frequently in Arod's class. For example, we were studying a paper on education, and it says something like college is not your life, it's just a small part of your life that you're about to create--and Arod expect a discussion out of this. I mean, I see how we can have a discussion, but, I mean, duh, Of course college isn't everything. I can see how some ppl center their lives around schooling or whatever, but seriously what do you expect us to argue against the idea that college is just part of our journey not our life? I mean of course everyone's gonna agree with that, who's seriously going to say college is the be-all-end-all to his life? Ugh.

The other is an argument that's just so stupid that SO MANY counter-arguments exist that you just can't find a place to start, like what Chris said about how Whites are just better than everyone else. And he seems to place Asian fobs at the lowest level of the pyramid. I mean...see? I can't find any words to respond. Seriously, what? What did you say? White people are better? This is like the exact opposite of the first case, this is some kind of universal falsehood. What and who determines whether a person is good or bad? How can you even prove this statement in any remotely scientific way? Hmmm...seriously? Just what made White people better than everyone else? Your words? You, Chris Shu's words? Seriously? Who cares about your words. Plus it just doesn't make sense at all. A person who can say something as retarded as this statement, especially with such certainty and confidence, undoubtedly has something wrong with his or her logic part of the brain if not the entire one.

银英重看：第一到十集观后感

我很少重看任何影视。我觉得看一遍完就很难再重拾那种第一次看时的新鲜感。但银英并没有给我带来这样的感觉，尽管我已看过了每一集，每一个场景，再看的时候，不知为什么，仍然会经历当时经历过的，甚至更多，其它的感觉：兴奋，伤心，惋惜。。。难怪大家都说银英是百看不腻。重看的理由有两个，第一个是让自己重温经典，更重要的是我把银英介绍了给我的历史老师（希望他真的会看），我不想当我们开始交流的时候我什么都不记得了。BLOG我的观后感的理由同我写其他博客的理由一样：我想把我的想法记录下来。我发现我只有把自己的想法写下来才会把它放下。要不然这些”想法“会积留在我心里，最后变成一块大石头。很难受的。


动画是以ASTARTE战役开场，短时间内就介绍了两位主角和他们的个性。貌似到了第二集杨和莱因哈特就交手了。 我当时看的时候就在想，如果制作团代没有这么做的话，可能我会很难继续看下去吧。各种分支故事穿差于十集之中，处理得很自然，也并不无聊。就连像那个克什么修普伯爵事件也丝毫感觉不到多余，尽管它和主线毫不相干。让我印象深刻的有几个地方：
1）杨和JESSICA的友谊（？）：这就是命运吗？一直在内心里对JESSICA有好感，却因为一次尴尬的跳舞而让好朋友占去了先机——还是，在拉普表示对JESSICA强烈的爱意后，他自己默默地退出了。十二年之后，杨心里仍是只有JESSICA一人，而JESSICA也表示她曾经喜欢的是杨。要是他们真在那树下接了迟到十二年的吻，事情会有所变化吗？我觉得不大可能。JESSICA终是要走上政治之路，尽管立场相同，这段感情有种注定要被永久埋藏的感觉。
2）先寇布：他的出场实在是大快人心。而ISERLOHN的那场战役也是尽显骑士之风。在那种瞬间就会被LASER给杀的灰都不留的年代，先寇布竟然在肉搏上有如此深造。我已经不记得是什么让我对先寇布如此感动。但我记得，只有他的死让我哭过。就连杨威利死时，我都没有掉过半滴眼泪。我什么也不记得了，除了当时的感动。
3）ISERLOHN之后：很讽刺地，在拿下ISERLOHN之后联盟决定进攻帝国。这个决定是完全违背杨的初衷的。他本是想在攻下ISERLOHN之后，联盟，既然占据了军事上的上风，会和帝国签约某种和平条约。很遗憾，事实并非如此。也就是这样尤里安才会加入军队的吧？是吗？我觉得正反尤里安都会加入的。他说了那么多理由，其实是一心崇拜杨吧。只要杨还是那神奇的杨威利，尤里安就没有理由不去成为军人。
很遗憾。