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Death is easy, living is a lot of responsibilities. If I can, I really don't want to live. I'm not saying that I intend to commit suicide or anything; that is not the case at all. I just wish that I hadn't existed at all. Every time I think of the burdens lying ahead me--only because I was born as the result of some random coincidence--all I can feel is despair. For some reason, I know there is a reason that I must continue to "pleasure the body"--I just don't know what it is. I'm certainly not buying the religious bullshit though. I prefer things based on actual logic and reason.