Day 2.

So, the before-the-topic rambling.
The reason I want a blog read by only me is that this way I'd have no restraint in writing my opinion. I used to have blogs, but those were sooo temporal because I can't find anything to write...anything that wouldn't offend other ppl or make ppl think negatively of me. However, in this blog, I can write whatever and however I want. No one's judging me. I'm free.

Ok, so the conflict of today is sleeping.
Last night I slept at 2:30AM because I was working on my Suburbanite article. So, this morning I decided to wake up a little bit late...not because I woke up late...I woke up early, but I just want a little more sleep. So I got up at 8AM, and as I expected, my mom began yelling at me for staying up and getting up so late...as if I wanted to do this. But this is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any conflict at all. I agree with her by all means. I know sleep is important, I know sleep deprivation is harmful to body. BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE. I HAVE TO DO WORK. I really really really want to sleep at 9 everyday but I couldn't. I don't like the way my mom scolds at me for sleeping late as if the only reason was that I was playing game or something. Like day before yesterday, the Oscar night. I don't even watch Oscar on a yearly basis. I think it's a waste of time. But that night at 10 I was hungry and I know I won't be able to go to sleep until at least two or three hours later so I went down to get some food. Meanwhile I figured maybe just watch ten minutes of Oscar and see what it is. My mom apparenty woke up by my footsteps, and came down furious, "What the hell are you doing? Watching Oscars? Are you kidding me? Do you know how to plan your time at all? HURRY UP AND GO TO SLEEP! Seriously, I don't understand what's wrong with your brain!"

I would like my job to be as comfortable and relaxing as my mom's (as of now), but it isn't. I can't just "go to sleep"...like Alejandro..because then I'd be missing hw or sucking at essays so I won't have the grades and everything that's appropriate for applying to decent colleges. I don't think she should be expecting her daughter, who is obviously not a prodigy and therefore has to work really hard to accomplish things, to succeed without working "till the sunrises"...A similar ridiculous thing is how my dad wants me to look sophisticated and yet opposes me going shopping.....Everything you wish comes with a sacrifice, and I think my mom and dad should be pleased that sacrificing is not their job anymore. I have to sacrifice my sleep to work hard and to become a person that they are proud of and I don't think they should be constantly yelling at me for that. There should be more understanding and sympathy. I'm hoping for more understanding and sympathy.