Even though Chris refused to admit, he did asked me to prom. And about an hour ago, I said I will go if he does not go back to being an asshole before prom. And suddenly it dawned me: the kind of words Chris used to say to me and how Hanah was even pissed at him. How I swore that I would never talk to him again because he was such a shitty friend and etc. and etc. And how I kept making the same mistake and I would never make it again.
I made it again. It's not that I'm mad at him at this moment. I am not. I think recently he has been behaving quite normally (relative to his standard). At this moment I really wouldn't mind going to prom with him because we're the kind of friends that know each other very well (Chris will argue that I don't KNOW him but I DO) but we also know that we are definitely not for each other (regarding this aspect we hate each other). I almost forgot about how upset he made me feel in the not so distant past. I don't know why I forget about things like this so quickly. I can be arguing like crazy with daddy today and be the best friends tomorrow morning.
I made the same mistake again. And I can't take it back.
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