Lost in the World

"What do you want to be in the future?"

I used to say, doctor. But now I just don't know anymore.

Part of me wants a challenging life like that of a doctor, always striving higher and higher, saving lives, conducting clinical trials...The other part of me wants a peaceful and quiet life in the middle of nowhere..or even better...next to the ocean. Or like that in Ninomiya's 温柔时间 (in a rural area surrounded by forests, very peaceful and quiet and simple). Part of me wants to earn a lot of money and have a luxurious life and support my parents and brothers at the same time. Part of me wants a quiet life in which I make just enough money to give myself a decent life, and no one bothers me.

I want to go to Africa, and other third word countries, as a doctor specialized in infectious diseases and help the people there however I can.

I want to open a small bookstore in a small town, where I just sit and read everyday and maybe trip around once in a while and that's my life.

I want to be an interior designer. Designing people's living rooms and my own.

I want to be a normal office worker somewhere for a good cause. Chilling everyday and spend the rest of my life unchallenged.

I don't know. It's too early to say.